Take me out tonight.

   I has gone a really long time since I updated this last. I just haven't had the time. It's like every passing minute is wasted on just thinking what I'm doing and the reason why I do everything I do. Sometime I'd like to think about something else, a happy thought. A thought of hope and joy. I want to be careless, I want to be free from my life. I just want to be, and do absolutely nothing. Maybe then I will have enough time to just look into the air, and see what's behind it. See my life and my thoughts and dreams and wish that I knew why it all existed. I want to know everything that no one else knows, or even care to think about. I have a dream, and I'm not in it, I am the dream.

   Right now I'm sitting in school, but I don't want to be here... I'm really depressed, and tired. I haven't slept for days. I tried to sleep some in school today, but there was something that woke me up all the time. I've got lots of homework to do, and I don't have any time to do that, or anything else. I have no idea where my time goes, somehow it esacapes from me. I'm not made for all my responsibilities, I'm made to be free. I don't want to care at all, but right now the only thing that I don't care about is myself... I have to do something about it, but I don't know what yet. I just sit here and watch my life and hope for better days...