Another night is being spent in front of the computer. I thought I'd have something better to do than just sit here and stare all day long. All I do is waiting, waiting for someone to talk to, waiting for something to happen. But nothing ever happens. Yet I keep waiting.

I've tried to write some music, I've tried to mix and master old recordings and newly created digital stuff, but it's hopeless. My creativity is dead, and so is the pleasure and proudness of my own creations. I hate when I get to that point where everything just feels meaningless and I'm so uninspired that I just want to erase that whole part of my life. Delete my music, delete everything I've written, delete my works, everything I've ever created. Just getting rid of that and hope that I will be able to put everything in what I do again. Sure, it will pass, but once at that stage, everything feels dark.

All day long, and yesterday and night as well, has been spent trying to get something done. I've tried everything out of frustration and desperation to get something done, and to actually like what I've done. Right now, it's almost impossible. I'm listening to music and feel how great everything is, but when I try myself, nothing is good.

It's just a passing stage, but the time I spent desperately trying anyway is just too long. Oh well, there's a new day tomorrow, I'll just hope for better luck then.