I am so sorry. It feels like I'm letting all of you down. Well, those few of you that really care... By not being nice, not being social, not saying anything, not acting as I use to, being annoyed at everything, not caring at all, not taking care of myself och my friends and my loved ones, being tired and hungry and feeling sad and feeling angry and just wish for a way out, to get away from everything, to just die, if that's what it takes. I'm sorry, everyone. I have no idea how to get out of this. I'm not sure if I can. For now, I'll just sleep the days away...

No more stories, my mind is just as empty as my life. I'm not sure if I should feel miserable, of if I should be relieved. One thing is certain: I need this break. Not I just want to know how to get back to life again. I'm tired of not living, just staying alive. I am destroying everything I once worked so hard for. All my dreams are fading away, left is only emptiness, cold and black. I sleep all the time, syet I'm too tired to think. This is a state of apathy never experienced before. This time it's for real. I need to get out, to get away...

I'm sorry. Once I feel better, I'll try to get things together again. I will care about you again. Sometime soon, I hope...