I skipped school today. And I actually feel that it was justified. I don't care anymore, I couldn't care less. There's nothing left to look forward to, I just want to get away. Far away where no one can reach me. I need some time alone, some time to think, some time to sleep. I've slept six hours this weekend. I'm almost like a zombie. A zombie... Too tired to think, too dead to care. This is my constant state of mind... I can't get out, I can't get away. I'm too tired to sleep. However, it's time to give sleep another try. I will update this entry tomorrow.

Sleep tight, grim right, we have two houndred couches where you can sleep tonight...

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Yesterday actually turned out to be quite a good day. Jammed with one of my bands, some of my closest friends. That was a lot of fun. Got home really late as usual, and for some reason I decided to clean up my record collection, sort it and such. CDs and vinyls and everything. It took two hours.
Slept too long this morning, missed the first class. As usual. Otherwise it's been a great day. I'm getting really close with some people in schoo, which is actually the only reason for going to school at the moment. Anyway, had another jam session with my friend Patrick today, it was great. We played for two hours. Both of us fell asleep on the bus home, it was the most wonderful moment in a long, long time... Times like those are worth living for.

When I got home, however, things started to turn ugly. I can't stand my mother anymore. All we do is fight. All the time. And today she indirectly accused me for taking drugs. Again. This is the reason why I'm so pissed right now. I've seriously had enough of her. I just can't take her screaming at me, her yelling, her accusations, her threats, her bitching any more. It's time to do something about it, once and for all. It's time for her to let go of me, realize that I'm living my own life and that I can do whatever I feel like, and she ahs nothing to say about it. She has reason to interfere with my life.

We'll see what happens within the next couple of days...