Spring is here. Spring is finally here. The snow is almost gone, and it's so nice outside. The sun is shining, and the ice is melting. Old men are playing chess in the parks, others discuss politics in almost empty trains going home, or going into nowhere, just going somewhere. Pregnant women walk around in those dresses only they look so good in. The trees still look dead, and the grass is almost grey after all that time under the snow, but eventually, all will grow green. People are outside, just enjoying life. That's a nice side-effect of long winters: once the spring finally comes, it's gonna feel so incredibly wonderful.

These last days have been...overwhelming, I guess you could say. Months and months of anxiety and panic is over, the one very last huge assignment in school is finally done, after almost a year of hard work. I made it, I am finally free. I don't have to worry over school any more.

Besides, yesterday I realized that there's so much I've been worried over, for no real reason at all. I have never ever before been so relieved. No more stress, no more anxiety. I can enjoy life again, for the first time since last summer.

Two days ago I realized something that I've known for years, but never really thought about. Until now.

Joel is the most talented, most amazing being I've ever known.

His consert was the most beautilful thing in a long, long time, but a little too emotional. It tore a lot of old would up, wounds that never really healed. But I needed that, I needed to take care of all those things I've just pushed away for so long, once and for all. And I feel so much better now. I feel that I'm in control of my feelings again, those uncertain hands have lost their grip of me.

Things are happening between me and Klara. This has been going on and off for the last four months, and I've never really known what I want, until now. I am sure. I am in love with her.